Body Back

I've been unhappy with my weight for a long time.  It's something I've struggled with and been unhappy about since before I was a teenager.  I was the biggest I had ever been when I got pregnant with Eva and then gained an additional 50 pounds on top of that.  I lost 25 of it almost immediately after she was born but I still had a long way to go. 

About a month after her birth, my brother got married and if I hadn't been motivated before the wedding I definitely was after it.  I couldn't stand to look at myself.  It was horrible.  I became more focused than ever to lose the weight.  I started to count calories and became more active and the weight started falling off.  It wasn't long and not only had I lost the 25 extra pounds of pregnancy weight but an additional 15 pounds.  I still wanted to lose more, but I plateaued.  When Eva was almost a year old, I found out I was pregnant with our second girl, Aubrey. 

My pregnancy with Aubrey was very similar to my pregnancy with Eva. I gained 50 pounds again.  I have to say, this was completely my fault.  I gave in to nearly every craving I had and I paid the price.  The weight didn't come off quite as easy the second time.  In fact, I'm still fighting it.  I had reached my pre pregnancy weight, but I haven't been able to break past that point.  I've actually had a really hard time maintaining it. 

In October of last year a friend contacted me about joining a fitness group on Facebook.  I felt like this was exactly what I needed.  I joined and for the first few weeks, I did pretty well.  I was exercising more and harder than I ever had and I was eating well, but I still wasn't losing anything.  I was starting to get extremely discouraged and then the group fell apart.  Without that accountability and with my frustration at the lack of results, I completely slacked off.  I pretty much quit exercising all together.  I was still trying to watch what I ate, but when the holidays rolled around I allowed myself to splurge more often. 

So here we are at the beginning of the year and I'm still in the same boat.  I have to lose this weight.  I need to be healthier.  The women at the preschool decided to do a "Biggest Loser" contest, so I joined in.  I also had a friend contact me about another Facebook group.  This Body Back group is for moms who are trying to get back in shape.  I joined that also.  To top it all off, Adam and I both joined Weight Watchers Online.  I'm hoping that I start to see some results soon.  I've been working out and eating healthier again, so here's hoping it works this time!

I was going to post some pictures with this post but I just couldn't bring myself to do it.  Not yet anyway.  Once I start losing weight/inches (and I will lose it!) then I think I'll be able to post pictures.