I have this child. She is hard headed and she acts as if she knows more than I do. I tell her one thing, and she does another. I tell her stop, and she goes. I tell her, "Don't do this, it isn't good for you," and she does it anyway. I sometimes wonder if the things I say to her hold any meaning or if they are just words. I wonder if she has any idea how much I love her.
I found myself thinking these things today, after the 462nd time of talking to Eva about something she had done, that she knows she isn't supposed to do, and I heard God say, "I. do. too."
I heard Him say, "I have this child. She is hard headed and she acts as if she knows more than I do. I tell her one thing, and she does another. I tell her stop, and she goes. I tell her, "Don't do this, it isn't good for you," and she does it anyway. I sometimes wonder if the things I say to her hold any meaning or if they are just words. I wonder if she has any idea how much I love her."
Maybe not in so many words, but He made Himself clear.
Now I have to look at myself and ask, "do I?" Do I ever really think about how much He loves me? Do I look at the guidance He gives me (out of love) and see it as merely words? Do I give it the proper attention and value it deserves? Honest answers now...Not really. Usually. No.
I look at my girls and think about how much I love them. If I think about it long enough it actually hurts, and I'm realizing, that as much as I love them, it cannot even begin to compare to the love He feels for them. To the love He has for me.
How can I expect my children to listen to me, when I, more often than not, fail to listen to my Father. Even scarier, how will they learn to listen to Him if I'm not showing them?
These children I have been blessed with are teaching me so much. So much about myself and so much about Him. More and more I am learning to recognize His voice. Yes, I heard You. Thank you for guiding me and for loving me. For showing me such grace when I fail.
Now...could you please speak to Eva about sitting on her sister?
