Let's See What Happens

I want to be crafty.  I want to be witty.  I want to be passionate about the Lord.  I want to teach my girls how to be strong, compassionate, generous women with a love for God.  I want to never stop learning.  I want to be healthy.  I want to run in a 5K.  I want to grow old with my husband.  I want to be what God has planned for me to be.  I want to follow His will. 

 I've spent a lot of time in recent years thinking about what I could have been, what I could have done.  Thinking, "Wow, you really fell short.  MILES short of what you could have been!  You're not a stupid person and you could have really made something of yourself had you ever actually applied yourself in anything."  I didn't though, and it wasn't until it was too late that I realized that.  I have thought these things, and then along comes social networking sites and it feels like they just rub my face in it.  I see all of these people that I know or have known, doing these things that, at this point in my life, are pretty much just dreams from a distant past.  I start having these "what if" thoughts, and then I hear God saying, "Open your eyes woman.  Look around at all that you have, at all that I have given you.  You are blessed and if you don't pay attention and start acting, it really will be too late.  Too late to do the things I have planned for you."  

There are things in my life today that are teaching me so much about myself.  Things that, had I "became something" wouldn't be in my life.  For instance, my husband and our two beautiful girls.  It is amazing to me how much you can learn from a two year old!  I can't ever sit here and wish that I would have done things differently.  That would be wishing away three of the most precious gifts He's given me.  I may not be where I thought I would be, but I have faith that I am exactly where He wants me to be.  I can look at my girls and look at my husband and know that I am something to them.   


There are so many things that I would like to do, but do any of them really matter if they aren't what He wants for me? 


So here I am, starting a blog.  Will I stick with it?  Who knows.  I have many projects lying around my home that I have started and not yet finished and this could be another.  My hope though, is that with a little motivation, provided by this blog, I'll talk about what I'm doing and want to finish my numerous projects on the off chance that someone might be reading about it.  I want the blog to be a tool to help me become what God wants me to be, so I think about what I could have been less and start thinking more often about what I could be. 

Let's see what happens.